By Dr. Demeter, Emily Samuels Ballantyne, Magical Farm Tasmania
There are days when speaking the truth feels like eating stones.
When your words, born from reverence and care, meet blank stares, passive aggression, or institutional walls. When the energy around you shifts not because you’ve done harm, but because you’ve revealed what others are unwilling to see.
The body feels heavy. Not with self-doubt, but with the imprint of unreceived presence.
In anthroposophical understanding, this is a kind of soul gravity. The astral body, when exposed to harsh energetic or moral dissonance, may recoil leaving the physical form to hold the echo. The ache. The weariness. The sense that something has landed in your bones that doesn’t belong to you.
Its important to find ways to release and renew and not resent. As we are all on a healing path and need to have compassion for the complexity we are living in. At Magical Farm, we call energetic cleansing work “composting the day”.
It is both a practice and a prayer: to take what was difficult, even degrading, and turn it into insight, humility, and fuel for the future. To remember that inner fire, like outer fire can both destroy and illuminate.
The Weight of the Unspoken: A Somatic Field Note
You are not wrong to feel heavy.
This is the weight of having integrity in a world that often rewards performance.
It’s not always our pride that suffers when we challenge dominant systems. Sometimes, it’s our nervous system. The sympathetic surge of being ‘othered’ in a meeting. The quiet adrenaline of holding your ground. The way the body holds that tension even after the mind has let go.
In anthroposophy, the body is not separate from the soul, it is its house and instrument. What we do not release becomes residue. What we do not compost becomes rot. So please compost!
🌿 A Ritual for Releasing the Weight of the Day
To support this composting process and digestion, I offer a small, simple ritual:
Evening Grounding Tea & Earth Offering
Ingredients:
– Skullcap (to calm the mental chatter)
– Marshmallow root (to soften the inner edges)
– Lemon balm (to lift the heart field)
Prepare a small pot of this blend and steep for 10–15 minutes.
As it brews, step outside barefoot if possible. Place your hand on the soil, a stone, or a tree.
Say quietly: “What does not serve may return to earth. May the energetic weight I carry become compost for the world’s becoming.”
Sip the tea slowly. Let the body feel received. Let the sky and earth take what is no longer yours to hold, they will support you to transmute.
Compost Prayer
Let the words I could not speak
sink down into the soil.
Let the weight I did not ask for
become a seed, not a burden.
May the ache in my neck and shoulders
be a sign I still care.
May the fire in my belly
light the hearth, not the war.
I give back what is not mine.
I keep only what roots.
The rest peacefully goes to,
to earth, to time, to stars.
and finally:
In the ancient Hawian Ho‘oponopono tradition, a profound practice of reconciliation and forgiveness is a traditional four-line prayer which you can repeat:
I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.
These phrases can be directed toward another person, oneself, or even toward land, memory, or spirit. In essence, it’s a practice of deep energetic cleansing.